this post is just to replicate monkey's blog. she likes to post her stupid little thing. ha i got more and bigger ones. so this is to monkey.

i am sad. i broke my fav mug. it was given to me by my best fren and i broke it. i love it alot. nv had a mug all to myself before and i broke it. i broke it with my own hands. i am sad, very sad:(

i dunno wad is wrong with me recently. i get all so emotion. i can sit, think of something, and tears just roll out of my eyes. i cry over everything abt nothing. last nite i cried. today, i almost cried when the mug broke. but i held back. i tot if i cry, it would be so stupid and silly of me. right now, i oso wanna cry. haiz... muz be cindy's blog. it makes me so sad. her blog music i mean.

so, today is andy's bday. he is in NY now. migrated. wun be coming back anytime soon. i din send him off (due to certain circumstance, it wld be awkward for me to be presence. anyway he din told me abt his departure date. well, due to the circumstance again, he shouldnt).

so i went to FB and posted on his wall. saw his new blog. went to read. it linked me to kat's and cindy's blog. saw the photos of the past in kat's blog. saw u in the photos. the photos of u b4 i left for perth. saw ur smile. u were truly happy. i bet u'r happy now too. lookin back at those photos, even thou i am not in any, i can feel u ard me. it makes me miss those days b4 everything change. its hard and sad for me to say, i miss u. as a fren. a gd fren. a close fren. i have been trying hard to maintain our frenship. things are moving slow. i guess its a good sign. i hope u well too.

i still rem myself walking thru the custom, not wanting to turn back. holding back my tears. i turned my back on u. i din even give u a hug b4 i left. bcoz i cant bear to. i din noe tat was our last moment. before everything change. i din want and shouldnt have end it tis way. i own u an apology. i wan to say it to u someday. but tat day nv came. i nv have the courage nor chance. one day, i will. one day...

i wonder wad will become of us if i din leave. u nv wanted me to leave. but i nv regret my decision. it is true i do miss u but we are frens. afterall, it was a long long..... its not easy to forget. but once again, i am sorry to leave u at the starting point and ran away w/o informing u.

i miss u, as a fren

this post is dedicated to u if u still read them. friends forever~

not only writers get mental block. studying can oso get mind block. wad is mind block? mind block is when things/ information cant get into ur head no matter how long u stare, how hard to try.

that is wad i am suffering now. it has been liddat since this afternoon. things are getting bad. i really tried my best. it is not tat i dun wish to study, its just tat my mind is kind of died. it is so dead tat i am doing nothing. even doing nothing is killing me. i dun feel like eating, watching tv, tokin to my bf, surfing the net. the disease is killing me from within. i dun even feel like stoning. even stoning kills.

the music has been blasting. and i like it. tat is the only thing i wanna do now. listen to the super loud music tat it hurt my ears.

if only...
i dun need to eat
i dun need to sleep
i dun need to bath
i dun fall asleep
i dun get brain dead
my brain has the power to absorb non stop

i seriously dun mind studying 24/7. but i am human. i cant do it. i have really done my best. i cant go on anymore. at least not for now.

it feels like i wanna commit suicide liddat. like i am writting my last words. haiz im not giving up on my life but i am giving up on studying. to me, they are the same. it feels like giving up on my life.

consider me dead for the time being...

I"M DEAD!!

PS this is not my will or last words. i am not going to jump off a building or jump onto the mrt tracks.

alrite i am not toking sense... BANG!!

today is the fourth thursday of november. wad does it mean?? it means its thanksgiving. so i would like to take this opportunity to thank my parents, my sister, my grandma, my friends and of coz, my boyfriend.

and of coz give thanks to the prof who have been giving constant hell and knowledge to me. of coz i am grateful.

i am thankful tat i can study and is having exams now. give thanks!!

PS im not being sacastic.

today is the fourth thursday of november. wad does it mean?? it means its thanksgiving. so i would like to take this opportunity to thank my parents, my sister, my grandma, my friends and of coz, my boyfriend.

and of coz give thanks to the prof who have been giving constant hell and knowledge to me. of coz i am grateful.

i am thankful tat i can study and is having exams now. give thanks!!

PS im not being sacastic.

for the past nearly two weeks, have been "trapped" at home, busy preparing for exams. it has taken a toll on my body.

1) my eyes started twitching after my first paper. and today is the third day already and it is still twitching.
2) i guess i am too heaty that i bite my tongue in my sleep. now it hurts like ulcer.
3) menstrual crump at such a time. more painful than usual tat my legs feels like jelly...

more great songs for the exam period...
-tik tok-kesha
-this is who i am-vanessa amorosis
-happy-leona lewis

three more days to exams!!!!!!! ------> freak out!!

anyway i am so craving for royce nama chocolate. so i decided to google it and see where is the nearest outlet. found out that there are only THREE freaking outlets!! dam it and they are all in the city...

main branch sitting at suntec, another at taka and the latest one at ion orchard

actually i do have royce choc at home. bot by darling.. its chocolate potato. very nice oso. but dunno is i eat too much ytd or i eat too fast (simply delicious), i was suffering from indigestion last nite.. but luckily, its not tat bad. so now, i dare not start eating them (cant stop..) anyway tonite goin for good food liao.

SASHIMI!!! I AM COMING!! to celebrate the beginning of exams (my horror!)

new song: like it like that-guy sebastian

just like it (exams) like that *PUI*